Booting the Bad Habits.

One major bad habit that I’ve picked up recently (because of the change in my work schedule over christmas), was that I hadn’t been doing my night routine. Instead I’ve mostly just been collapsing on top of my bed, fully dressed, wrapped in a blanket.

And I know this isn’t good for me, but I keep telling myself that I’m just too tired to bother with a night routine that takes about half an hour.

Now maybe I should just try to get my routine done in less time, but then I have to move faster, which gives me more energy and wakes me up. So, again, I’ve just been telling myself that I shouldn’t bother.

But now that I’m back to doing my old, shorter shifts at work I feel that I should be rebuilding that habit that I initially only started due to my OCD.

My OCD tells me that I need to be clean enough to get into my bed, which is why I’ve been too lazy to get ready for bed most nights.

So, every night I have to:

  • wash hands, brush teeth, wash hands
  • change out of day clothes, put on clean underwear
  • go back to the bathroom, wash hands again
  • wash hair, wash hands, tie up hair
  • wash arms/armpits
  • wash face, neck, ears
  • open door, turn off light, wash hands
  • back to my room to moisturise and put on pj’s
  • and finally into bed and sleep

So that does take me a bit of time. And it may well be true that I’d be done a lot faster if I just have a shower instead of faffing about washing a third of my body, but in my head I tell myself that it won’t.

In any case, the main point is that I just need to get back into a routine that will allow me to get into bed properly to allow for a better night sleep. Therefore I am going to encourage myself to ignore that last bit of tiredness and just do the routine anyway. I might even be smart about things and start getting ready for bed earlier. That would be a novelty in itself.

I guess we just have to see how it goes.

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.



New year; new me… Or something along those lines.

Okay, so we’re a week into the year already, but because my mum works in a school and only went back to work today, this is the day our family’s healthy eating has begun.

More importantly, today I had the day off work, and was home alone, so I decided to exercise. It may have just been about twenty minutes doing a home workout in my back garden, but as someone who doesn’t have a regular exercise routine I’m still proud of myself. ­čÖé

Also, I’m now going to be working afternoons/evenings for the foreseeable future, which means I can’t start getting up early with the purpose of having time to exercise early in the day while other people aren’t around to make me feel uncomfortable about it.

On the not so positive side, I went out and bought some new workout clothes today. I probably spend too much, which is the bad news, but on the other hand I now have an extra cute outfit to wear for tomorrow’s workout. Haha.

I’m definitely using the excuse of the new year to change up my habits and lifestyle. I had been trying to reduce the amount of spending, but with several family and friends’ birthdays coming up in the next month, I ended up spending quite a bit of money this week already.

Oh dear.

On the other hand, I shouldn’t need to do that much spending for a while now.

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.

Too Many Decisions…

So I kind of feel a bit stuck at the moment.

I really want to change my job in the new year. I’ve been saying for ages that I want to leave my job, but I haven’t actually done anything about it. But now I’ve decided that I want something more from life.

Part of me has the desire to start a career in childcare. I think it’s something that I would probably enjoy, and I think I could be quite good at it.

On the other hand, I quite like the idea of going travelling. I want to see different places that I’ve never been to before. I want a better opportunity to learn a language and be immersed in it so that I become more fluent.

If I go into a career in childcare I need to decide whether I want to try to find a position that doesn’t require a qualification, and will allow me to progress and train in the job, or I could go back to studying, which might help me to get a better job, but it might also trigger my mental health problems.

However, if I go travelling, I need to decide if I want to get a job abroad in a country that predominantly speaks a language that I can’t speak too well, or I could just put aside a portion of my savings and use that to live on while I’m away.

Forcing myself to get a job would give me a better opportunity to learn the language, even if it doesn’t earn much money, but living on my savings would give me more time to explore the country (and would be less terrifying).

Then again, I could just combine my interests and get a job as an au pair in a foreign country. I would be able to learn the language while I’m there, I’ll have the chance to earn a small amount of money, and it would be good experience for childcare.

But I don’t like the idea of living with total strangers in a country that I don’t know too well, where I don’t have any friends. I think I’d rather live alone if I’m in a strange country (although I don’t know how safe I’d feel doing that).

I don’t know. There are so many things that I want to experience, and so many opportunities out in the world. I just need to make an initial choice and see where I go from there. It could end up being terrible. But there is also the chance that it could be the best thing that ever happens to me.

I guess I’ll just have to do some research, make a choice,and see what happens.

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.

2019 Reading Plans.

Every year I write myself a list of reading goals for the coming year. These aren’t strict rules, but more of a guideline for things that I would like to achieve, and reminders for specific books that I want to read or re-read.

So these are some of the ideas that I have already come up with for 2019.

  1. not re-reading Harry Potter. – I know this may not really seem like a goal, but every year I seem to attempt reading it in varying amounts of time, and I can never read it fast enough, or I don’t have the attention span for the whole series in one go. I tend to find it just takes up a lot of time which I would rather spend reading new books, or re-reading something that I don’t know as well as Harry Potter.
  2. reading 70 books. – this year I had the goal to read 50 books in the year. I have nearly reached that now, and I think, even though this is the first time I’ve managed to read that many books in one year, I would like to challenge myself even more. I’m hoping that within a few years I’ll be able to read 100 books in one year.
  3. read five classics. – I’ve hardly read any classics other than the ones that I had to read in school, so I don’t really know if they are my thing, but I have a few of the nice classics in Penguin covers, and I feel like I should read them sooner or later. There’s got to be a reason why they are classics, and I would like to form my own opinions about those books.
  4. read the Throne of Glass series. – a few years ago I read the Throne of Glass book, but never got to any of the sequels. I don’t really remember much about the book, maybe a little bit about the end, but not in much detail. But loads of people online have said that they really enjoy the series, and I think I would like to have another go at getting into it. From what I can remember it took me a really long time to get through the first book, which might be why I have been putting off re-reading it. It could have just been during a reading slump, or maybe it’s the book, but I should try reading the book again in order to find out.
  5. re-read The Book Thief.┬á– I think I read this book last year, and it was the first time I read it. I loved the book so much. I really had a strong emotional connection to it. I’d just love to experience that story again.
  6. re-read The Raven Cycle quartet. – I have read this series a couple of times, and I love it so much. I’m really trying to encourage one of my friends to read it, so maybe we can buddy-read it or something. I just think it’s such a well-written series. I love Stiefvater’s characters, they just feel so human, it’s absolutely beautiful. I haven’t read the series this year, so I think I might go back to it (although I’m not sure because I kind of know the story quite well, and I don’t want to get bored with it).
  7. read more graphic novels.┬á– I bought several graphic novels this year because I wanted to experiment with that format, but I hardly read any of them, so I really want to put more intention into reading them next year.

That’s all I have come up with so far. I might add a few more before the end of the year, but I think that is quite enough to be getting on with.

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.

For The Most Part…

For the most part I have been pretty okay with getting up at 0500 recently. I haven’t been getting up that early on my days off, but nearly every work day last week I was getting up at five.

Today, however, I really struggled to wake up. It’s probably just because I didn’t get ready for bed properly last night, I just collapsed on top of my bed wrapped in blankets. But I honestly found it difficult to get out of bed this morning.

I think tonight I’m going to start preparing myself for bed a bit earlier, and try to get a decent sleep. Then it might be easier for me to wake up tomorrow morning.

I really think that waking up at 0500 five times a week will help me to get a property habit. It’s just a shame that I can’t seem to get myself up at that time on days when I don’t need to be up that early.

Anyway, so long as I keep trying my best it will all be worth it (or so I keep telling myself).

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.

Hola mis amigos.


Quier├│ aprender espa├▒ol.

Aprendo espa├▒ol en escuela secundaria, pero no recuerdo mucho.

Por la tanto, he decidido para ense├▒arme.

(I was using google translate to help me, please don’t be mad. Lol.)

Hasta la proxima vez…

Amor, Bobbi. Xx.

Nearly One Week In.

I have been waking up at 0500 for most of the week so far. Monday was my first day, and it went perfectly fine. I actually quite enjoyed it that morning. So I was optimistic about the rest of the week.

I can’t remember if I mentioned in my previous post, but on Sunday I got a sunrise alarm clock. This really helped me with waking up, especially on Monday. I think I might have moved my clock slightly on Monday evening because the light from the clock woke me up on Monday morning around 0445, before my alarm sounded. Whereas on Tuesday and Thursday I woke up to the alarm sound.

On Wednesday I didn’t need to get up so early, so I didn’t get up until around 0730. So that was a bit of a disappointment, but I probably needed the sleep.

Likewise, today is my day off, so I got to sleep in later than I should have done… I didn’t get up until 1140. I know that sounds bad, but I had stayed up until past midnight last night, when I had been going to bed between 2130 and 2300 the previous nights. So clearly I was shattered this morning.

Tomorrow I need to get up at 0500 again, which it not great for a Saturday, but needs must. I don’t think it will be a problem, because when I know that I need to get up that early, I don’t really struggle too much.

Next week, however, is likely to be a problem. I am covering the closing shifts every night. This means that I probably won’t be finishing work until 2030 most nights (maybe 2130 on Thursdays because of late night shopping). Therefore I won’t be going to bed until reasonably late, so I won’t be getting up particularly early at all.

But after that I believe that I’m doing early morning shifts up until Christmas. Hopefully two months of getting up at 0500 will trigger a new habit… But I’m not going to count on it, especially when I’ll probably be going back to afternoon/evening shifts after Christmas.

In any case, I think these early mornings will do me some good, even if it only lasts for eleven and a half weeks.

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.

Some Early Mornings.

So this week at work I am starting my shifts at 0700 pretty much every day. This means that I have to get up at 0500 so that I can get the bus at 0615.

That means I’ve got an early morning challenge all week.

At the weekend I bought myself a new alarm clock with a sunrise simulator. I used it last night, and this morning I woke up fifteen minutes before my alarm because of the light. I found it quite pleasant really. It was a really gentle way to wake up, and it has the option of different nature sounds as well.

I think it will be really nice for me to use this clock all week, and hopefully I’ll be able to continue getting up really early so that I can use that time to be really productive.

That being said, I don’t think my brain and my body are particularly used to such early mornings. I’ve been awake since 0445, and it is now 1730. I could probably do with a nap, but I think I’ll be needing to head to bed in about three or four hour, so there really isn’t any point in having a nap now.

I guess this will be something that I’ll need to get used to, for this week at the very least. On the other hand my manager has mentioned that there might be some mornings starting at 0600, so I will need to be getting up at 0500 then anyway.

I think I’ve said before that I’ve wanted to be an earlier riser for a long time. My gran always wakes up super early. She reckons she’s overslept if she gets up at 0600. Maybe she’s a little crazy. My mum tends to wake up around 0700 every morning, even without an alarm, and my brother was always more of a morning person too. Myself and my dad tend to be more late night, late riser people. Maybe it isn’t possible to change the way you are, but I guess there isn’t any harm in trying.

I’ll let you know how the rest of this week’s mornings go.

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.

Deep Breath In. Hold. Slow Release.

As you may have noticed, I haven’t really been using this blog as much as I had planned. I guess it’s just one other habit that I need to create.

Anyway, let’s just accept that so far I have failed at being productive, an early riser, and a generally healthy person. So I’m trying to think things over, and I’m going to see what I an do differently this time that will help me towards success.

Over the past couple of days I have been planning out a weekly schedule for myself. It’s tricky for me to do something like this because my work rota changes each week, which means that my whole schedule will have to be different each week.

The main thing that I’m trying to instill with this schedule is going to bed and getting up at the same time each day, and also having proper morning and evening routines.

I know it will take me a while to be able to fully perform the schedule each day, and I know that I always say that I know new habits will be difficult to create and repeat. I just want to add some structure to my life. I think that would really help me to become more productive.

I don’t know. I have so many ideas for how I want to change myself, but I don’t actually know if I have the capability to pull it off. I have a lot of self-doubt, especially about anything that can improve my life.

I suppose at first there is going to be some trial and error whilst arranging a reasonable schedule, especially one that won’t take much tweaking each week. I guess the only thing I can really do now is test it out and take note on what works, and what doesn’t.

So I’m just going to take a deep breath, and try my best. All I can do is learn.

Until next time…

Love Bobbi. Xx.