Occupation
I have had the same job for over three years now, and for about two years or more I’ve been saying that I want a new job. But I haven’t put all that much effort into getting one.
This is where the positive mindset will be a lot of help. Often I am too negative about my own capabilities, which prevents me from applying to a lot of jobs that I could probably do quite easily.
What I need to do is get in the habit of checking local job vacancies on a regular basis. I need to make sure that I have a couple of CV’s and cover letters for different types of jobs that are on-hand to be amended and sent off as and when I need them.
I need to focus on getting a new job instead of just wishing for it.
I need to become aware of the types of jobs that I’d be interested in applying for. I had previously thought that I wanted a basic administrative job, but more recently I’ve been thinking that I perhaps want to look into childcare. But that might mean that I have to study for a new qualification – so I’d then need to decided if that really is something that I want to do.
But mostly I just need to make the effort to actually do something about getting a new job. Just saying I want it isn’t going to do me any favours if I do nothing about it.
Honestly, I’ve been imagining the day that I can hand in my notice at my current job for months, maybe even years. I can’t wait for it, but it’ll never arrive if I don’t find another job to move to.
Hobbies
Early last year I decided that I wanted to take up sewing – in particular dressmaking. I want to be able to design and make my own clothes. So I bought a sewing machine.
It was a reasonably basic one. But it still cost £230, and I’ve hardly used it since. I started trying to make a fairly simple looking skirt, but I had quite a bit of trouble with it, largely because I’m just so unfamiliar with the process of following a pattern.
So that is something that I would really like to put the effort into learning.
I would also quite like to get back into drawing. I used to do drawing all the time (when I was at university and should have been doing other stuff), but in the past year I’ve hardly done any. I think I want to start drawing again, but part of me is worried that I’ve lost the ability to draw, and it would be too difficult to learn it again. On the other hand, I have loads of expensive colouring pencils that I really should use.
I used to really enjoy drawing faces, and trying to colour them with pencils. I did often just trace the outline of the face, but perhaps I should now put in the time and effort to learn how to draw a face without tracing. I know the basics, but it would be really good to learn some proper techniques.
Also, when I was at university I used to write fiction. I haven’t done much of that since graduating in 2015. I honestly can’t believe it was that long ago. But still, I don’t feel that I get many ideas for stories anymore. Maybe I just need to be thinking about writing more, and get back into the practice of coming up with story ideas again.
Another sort of hobby I want is to learn languages. I wish I could speak a whole bunch of languages, but I can’t. i learnt Spanish in school for five years, but never did anything with it. Now I’ve pretty much lost it altogether. But I guess there is still hope of learning it again. Like everything else, it just takes practice.
Maybe I could also think of some other hobbies and activities I could get into, perhaps something which I could do with friends, or where I could meet new friends. I don’t know.
Routines
As I’ve said in a fairly recent post, I’ve got out of the habit of my routines recently, especially my bedtime routine.
I need to put in the effort to rebuild my routines, or construct new ones in order to have a better flow to my life. I don’t think it will take too much effort, as this is only a recent routine that I’ve lost.
On the other hand, I think I need to amend my morning routine entirely.
Prior to doing a really early shift at work during Christmas, I didn’t even have a morning routine. I didn’t even have a regular time to get out of bed. Most mornings I would just stay in bed for as long as possible until I had to rush to get ready and run for the bus.
I don’t want to be doing that anymore. I need to set up a routine which allows me to wake up gently, and also gives me the chance to be healthy and productive before I have to get to work, or meet any other obligation in my life.
Over Christmas (the joys of working in a toy shop at that time of year), I was waking up at 0500, getting washed and dressed but 0525, having breakfast, and leaving the house to get the bus at 0600. I really felt that I got into a routine.
I always got up with plenty of time to get ready before I had to leave (except towards the end when I was waking up a little bit later that 0500), and I had a quiet, peaceful hour to just be by myself. I could get ready in my own time and without any bother from anyone else. It was practically perfect in every way.
But since that is over, I don’t really know what to do with myself. I have been managing to pull myself out of bed by about 0800, so at least I’m not staying in bed until lunchtime anymore. But I need a proper routine so that I can have a peaceful morning, and feel that I’m not wasting the entire first half of my day.
This one will probably be a bit more of a challenge than the night routine, not helped by the fact that I’ll still be half asleep when I’m trying to implement the new routine. So I think that might take some time. The best I think I can hope for at the moment is getting up at the same time every morning, getting washed and dressed, and eating a decent breakfast. After that I will need to find something productive to get me going for a good day.
Until net time…
Love Bobbi. Xx.